My Little Secret

So,

First of all, welcome to my new blog. For those of you who don't know, I have always wanted to be a writer. It's one of those things I've always known about myself. When I was really little, before I could even write, I knew I was going to be a writer. Back then, I'd imagine all kinds of stories.

Well, after hitting junior high, when every aspect of your self-esteem takes a blow, I started doubting my ability to write and kind of gave it up focusing instead on sports, music, friends, school...boys, of course. However, during those years I did hang onto my very active imagination, which of course was my escape through middle school drudge. By the time I hit high school, I'd convinced myself that only academic writing really mattered and though I loved a good book as much as the next kid had all but given up my dream of being a fiction writer.

It was in high school, however where I truly began to believe I had something worth pursueing. I took an A.P. class from a teacher in my high school who helped me decide on choosing English for my major in college. After five grueling years of academic writing I'm happy to say that I got it out of my system. And here I am, a mom of one awesome little boy and married to my best friend in the whole world, who somehow reached down inside me during my deepest moments of doubt, and funny enough tugged on the thread that has since often become my life line during the challenges of being a stay-at-home mom; my writing.

So, I guess here's the story behind the blog: I started thinking up a story a very long time ago...like over thirteen years ago and I felt like it was so good I really wanted to wait until I had a good chunk of time to dedicate myself to it. Well, about seven years later, when I was a sophomore in college, the idea came back to me and so I began scribbling down little notes here and there in a special notebook. When my son was born premature and sleeping almost twenty hours a day I needed something to keep me going and so, I finally got my good solid chunk of time to dedicate to this story idea I had so long ago.

And now, here I am almost three years later...still working on this story but honestly loving every minute of it. You know how they always tell you that you know you're living you're dream when going to work every day feels like playing. Well, that's what I feel like. But I won't lie to you; as any writer knows there is nothing more satisfying that wanting to communicate something and being able to come up with just the right words to say it. In contrast, there is nothing more grueling and irksome than being unable to say what you're trying to say the way you want to say it...well, excepting motherhood on both ends of the spectrum, of course.

So, here comes the point of this blog. I decided I needed an outlet; a place I could come and vent and feel like someone was listening (My husband is actually really awesome at listening, but I'm sure he's pretty sick of it). Whether or not anyone actually does come and listen isn't as important, though comments, empathy, support etc. is always welcome.

In short, this blog is dedicated to my successes, my failures, my frustrations, my new found tricks of the trade and anything else I feel I need to put up here to make the ride of achieving my dream--not necessarily becoming an "author", meaning someone who gets published, although that would be AWESOME--but to aid me in finishing what I've started. That's all I'm really asking for.

Stay tuned till next time.